April 2011
Been awake for 24 hours. Woo.
Ever been in one of those moods where your friends...
Totally in one of those moods.
Regrets
There are a lot of things I wish I could go back and change, but, without a doubt, chief among them is how I treated Alissa. I took a vulnerable girl desperate for attention and acceptance and repeatedly pushed her past her comfort zone for my own benefit. Even after I broke up with her, I continued to take advantage of her insecurities and feelings for me. I like to think I’ve become a...
I can’t believe how much I want to see her everyday. I’m consciously aware that I don’t want to date her, but I still have this desire all the time. I haven’t seen her in days and I’ve felt every hour of it. This blows.
It seems everyone in my social circle has some semblance of their shit together but me. At the very least, you all have plans. All of my friends are moving forward, and as a result of that I feel like I’m not going to be needed. I’ve already been feeling like the only thing that sets me apart in the group is my role as “the black guy.” I’ve been trying to make myself...
The Boat Landing
All of my friends are doin’ it. Nothing serves as a cruel reminder of your own celibacy better than all but one member of your social circle is in a sexually active relationship, and that one has already decided she isn’t going to bone you.
Woo.
Lost my wallet. Woo.
