Free food and booze?
Yes. I had both of those things tonight, thanks to Dani’s gift card to BJs. Good stuff. And the dress she was wearing. Hot damn.
It’s Friday night. I’m stone cold sober. I’m at a Basketball game, of all things.
You gon’ learn today.
No Time For "In Retrospect..."
I’ve mentioned before that I’ve done some regrettable things, but in the last few weeks I’ve come to terms with a lot of it. I’ve learned that I don’t need to hold onto every little thing just because I haven’t worked it out personally with the person involved. Just let it go. If they forgive you, forgive yourself. If they don’t, you still have to forgive...
A Bit Hasty
So, I may have been lying the other day about being over this Dani business. I am tired of this internal back and forth, though. I’ve spent so much time trying to get closer to her that our friendship has developed to the point that I’m not sure I’d even want to trade it for something more than friendship. That’s not true. If I could, I’d trade it tonight. The...
I’m done holding out hope for anything to happen with Dani. If nothing happened a year ago when we were both newly single and all over each other, it certainly isn’t going to happen now. And that’s just from a physical standpoint, though she still manages to be frustratingly frisky when we drink. I know she doesn’t hold anything romantically for me anymore, if ever, and...
Dani and Christian are amazing. I was overcome with emotion tonight. I didn’t show it, of course, but I was blown away. I didn’t know I meant that much to them. Or how much I had missed them. They were only gone 3 days, but seeing them tonight was amazing. I wish I’d been able to go over sooner so I could spend more time with them, especially since Christian is leaving for the...
I miss my band family, and I’m deeply envious of their trip to the Big Easy, the birthplace of jazz. I can only imagine what the experience is like. It’s fairly unlikely I’ll ever be given a chance at a paid trip to New Orleans again, especially with my musically inclined friends. I feel even worse considering this is the last Marching Aztecs event Dani will be involved in and...
What's the deal with these dreams?
Last night I had a series of dreams about Caliah in which she talked me through a lot of my emotional hang-ups regarding my exes in a very succinct, yet insightful, way. A lot of the things she said are things I’ve already tried to convince myself of, but for some reason never stuck until I had a subconscious representation of the girl I developed a lot of those hang-ups with. I kept...
Now, while I generally don't regard anything...
She does seem to have the uncanny ability to get me to think about myself. She asked me if I had any romantic issues and if that was why I was drinking. I explained that the drinking was largely out of boredom, but for the remainder of the night, I thought about where I am romantically. I don’t have any significant prospects, but I’m also not upset about it. Even just a few weeks ago I...
That was unexpected
My brain decided to have me dream about Shellie and I getting back together, and it was probably the most pleasant, not completely fantastical dream I’ve had in a long time. I can’t remember the exact situation, but for some reason she needed a ride and I was running errands that she had to accompany me for before I could take her home. We talked a bit in the car while driving and...
This is my new favorite thing.
I love her, but am I in love with her?
I’m not quite sure what my situation is concerning Dani. I was fairly certain I was past the romantic interest for the two of us, but every now and then situations arise where I feel a serious emotional connection to her. If she’s upset, I’m upset. When she’s happy, I’m happy. I know strong empathy comes with close friendship, but it seems so much stronger when it...
It's amazing that my two current music obsessions...
iamdonald: Happy Thanksgiving… P.S. You guys bought 53k of Camp last week. That’s really unbelievable. And I’m very thankful for that.
Thought of this one sober
I’ve created a new word. Whisclassy: The illusion of sophistication when inebriated on whiskey. “My dear lady i do enjoy your company a great deal and would be honored if i could court you.” to “you wanna make out?” “I’m afraid I must disagree, kind sir. A ricochet from one receptacle to another is invalid for additional consumption.” To...